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I grew up in the city our National Hero and lived in great City of Manila and Quezon. When I was four, I wanted to be an actress like Maricel Soriano or become a Goddess performer like Madonna. Instead, I became a volleyball player and tried to join the RP team before deciding that being a Physical Therapist was my real forte. My first tv appearance was when Jao Mapa serenade me on an audience seat while watching ASAP then everyone booed me at school the next day.
However, I was spotted on a band audition for Japan and recruited by Angela Velez’s manager to try a go-see for Angela’s lingerie fashion event. I went to audition on Director Mario o’Hara’s “Babae sa Break Water” but the producers turned down the project and resumed just until 2004. My first lead role movie PURI was 2004 first blockbuster movie of the year but sweet success became sour when my Uterus CANCER was published by The Daily Inquirer and then Trust Condom Endorsement cancelled my upcoming contract signing. I was coaxed into auditioning for a part as an introducing in a Star Cinema Film by Cholo Laurel (working title LIHIM, then became NASAN KA MAN to be exact), they told me I was perfect for the role, but I was rejected.

Meanwhile one of the FAMAS panelists told us that my name was in list after the panel voting for nomination of Best Actress Category in 2005, but my name was never announced.I also signed a 3 year contract with Dyna Records as SHaKIRA’s Philippine version but I did not finish recording my first album then.

If you don’t see too much of me on TV, I am just home obsessed with my computer.
anyway, up to this day I am still fascinated with Maricel Soriano’s acting, while for me Shakira is the Goddess performer nowadays.

Finally

I’ve been writing over the past 4 years my thoughts and self confession online, but haven’t published it. I just wrote those stuff on an online diary but it was only me who can read it. But I lost that account, i don’t remember the password of the email account I used to signed up. Got pissed off and freak over two years of trying to retrieved the damn journal. Then for the consecutive 2 years i have been always thinking to start all over again but I didn’t attempt to do so, tho i have already a blog sharing all my confession as a starlet but I was hiding my identity.
Until last night, I was real bored and looking on my old diary, I finally decided to reorganize my blog at blogspot to rewrite my thoughts and confession because I really wanted to share and write it for one day i will be gone…

I wanna share my story, from my simple and but not an ordinary life, from a child who dreamed to become journalist, a well known singer or to become an actress one day.

confession

I was born and raised as a Mormon. My goal in life was to return to my Father in Heaven. I know that Christ is our Savior. I have been grateful for his love and guidance. He is my best friend. I have cried many times, knowing how he has taken on my sins, as well as many of the people that I know and love. I am so grateful for Jesus Christ and For his sacrifice and guidance so that we can return to our Heavenly Father.

I knew the path that I was to travel early in life. I thought I would never go down that ugly path.. I have seen many stray into.. Ive gone too far in my life, I even had my own freedom & chose between evil & good. But one thing I have learned is that; I have seen much happiness in following Jesus Christ. Sadness comes from leaving that path that He made for us to follow. Many trials & hardships are there to strengthen us. I see the wisdom now, of having to deal with the pain of trials or sin. Either through my own family, myself, or those of others. I went on different path and suffered bitterness & pain for i made a wrong choices; following my ambitions on which i was so blind to see if its blessing or trial; but neither. With each stumbling block in life, there is wisdom gained.

There is beauty in following the Savior. I truly love him. I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father, and the plan of salvation. I feel so blessed with all that I have, not necessarily material goods, not even a perfect family life; still because they introduce me to Heavenly Father and as I grew up I had seen many people’s lives change for the good, w/ the acceptance of the gospel and I have learned the fullness of gospel of Jesus Christ. Yea, I have learned so much from my mistake; enough to show everyone how i am grateful..
because Jesus still loves me after all..